Late Night Rambles 

What the fuck am I so afraid of? Every person has a story, a history, a future and the power to act. Every day brings with it millions of opportunities for life to go one way or the other. It’s all about choices we make and the convuluted act of just going for it. 

We (maybe I should say I, but a collective make it easier to swallow) want to do something. Then, we spend so many days, months and years talking about it instead of acting. What is with human nature that makes us this way? We all know that life is finite, yet we procrastinate carelessly until it’s too late. Only then do some of us wake up and wish we could’ve done it all differently. 
Not me. Not anymore. 

I am going for it. I only have small inklings of what it is, but I will know when I’ve done it. I can feel that is the truth. I’m trusting intuition, finally. 

I am going to explore and do things I’ve never done and see what I come back with, or without. Mind games and tricks can put illusionary limits on capabilities. I am learning to quiet those unneeded thoughts. There’s a whole lot of brain power that I won’t allow to be left unused and potential lingering that needs to be ignited. 
T-3 days until takeoff. 


From Negative to Positive

When we think of negative thoughts, there’s generally an onslaught of them at once. It’s as if you have one and it multiplies exponentially within seconds, calling on all of its negative thought friends to come out and join in a dooming party. So, why doesn’t the same phenomenon occur with positive thoughts?

I (positively) think the answer is practice. As we grow up and start letting negative thoughts enter our mind, we tend to focus on them. They begin to come naturally. Positive thoughts, on the other hand, have to be proactively thought about. Even though positive thoughts were so ubiquitous when we were young, we slowly lose the ability to focus on all the good things as we grow old.

For myself, I will try to make the positive thoughts a habit, so when I do think of something happy, I’m filled with a domino effect of like-minded thoughts. This will evict negative thoughts from my mind. Maybe two negatives will make a positive, in places outside of math class.